Rants are moving

Silly me I thought the rants page was also Blog-like but, it's not so I'm going to right it all here. All this angst on my part was kicked off by my now estranged other half - can't say ex because he's not. I never believed in the midlife crisis thing but, boy has he got one going on. It certainly left me not only confused but with 2 teenage daughters to bring up or should I say look after. 

30 years is a long time and being on your own and responsible all of a sudden is difficult and tiring, my parents are gone so I have no one older and wiser to support me or at least make the right noises. It has made me wary and in some things indecisive which at this juncture is not a good thing. The other thing is of course the loneliness, we had a very intense close relationship so that meant very few friends, when your only 'friend' suddenly disappears you have to find new one hence the first point I said I'd try and change - old habits die hard

I said I'd tell you how I got on with the 1. Avoiding Isolating myself - well I think it's going OK kind of... I went on a reunion to London and met friends I haven't seen for 20 years it was great fun!! I would never have done that a year ago. 2. Exercising - also OK I've been to the gym a total of 8 times since I wrote my rants post. It may not be having much of an an effect on my waistline yet but, it's at least making me too tired to stay awake and worry which is a plus.

Do I feel better, I suppose I do, I haven't listened to either of the songs I posted, both are a little depressing wouldn't you say? Music is funny I can't find anything I like... listening to the lyrics too much. 

I've also been reprocessing space - making it mine - that it really something that helps, I'm redecorating and moving furniture around like there's no tomorrow, it's also something I enjoy design what do you think of this little piece of reprocessing I did:

Yep, I love it too....


Doing stuff for yourself, not anyone else... That's what I'm going to try and do during the next week, 1 thing every day.