...Rants

RANTS AND FEELINGS

I remember many years ago a psychologist telling me that it was very important to let people know how you feel. Especially, if you are angry with a particular person. I am NOT that person I always bottle it up and get over it, however over the years that have led people to say things like 'she's such a strong person', 'don't worry she can cope', ' it's OK, it's  Julia'. 

I have come to a part of my life when none of the above are true. I definitely can't cope, I certainly am not feeling strong and it's NOT OK and if you are not careful I'll burst into tears just writing this. I have issues, I know they are part of a process and that I'll get over it, because it is the only solution. I'm not going to go into them but they are summed up by two songs:

Love grows cold, blood tears and gold won't make it any better, I never let let you down baby - sums up how I feel after 30 years. The causes however are hidden in these lyrics:

I could write down all the lyrics, just listen.


Let's change the subject a little, did you know that if you put 'help depression' in Google you get over 419 million returns, and that's just in English! That is a lot of pages, sure I'll find plenty of interesting stuff. So I'm starting with this blog, I have no idea whether it will work.This week I have two aims:
 1. Avoid isolating myself - something I actually enjoy is being on my own.
 2. Exercise every day - I'm a member of a gym and I enjoy pounding the running machine, so that shouldn't be too difficult.


I have to change a habit and continue something I like doing, I report back about how I get on.